|payingattention (payingattention) wrote,|
@ 2008-07-27 23:12:00
|Current mood:||well then|
|Current music:||Imagine Me and You|
#6: I Could Climb You Like a Mountain
Laura says she spends a lot of her time focusing on calming down, being less anxious. Maybe I just don't try hard enough. Maybe if I just do that, I don't need medication, and maybe I'm just fooling myself into thinking that I need it because I think it will make everything go away without me having to work on it.
It has become more and more like something I can't do. Blah blah blah and on and on and on, but really like...maybe after the party. Maybe I really do need a break. For my own sake, for her's. Because my brain is eeking out of my ears.
It all came back, just like I was afraid it would. But talking to Laura, at least there was someone who could sort of understand. Someone I'm not sleeping with. Someone who has been on so many medications that she knows what worked, what didn't work, the side-effects, etc etc etc.